Addiction is still a big taboo. With this photo book, Vivian Keulards breaks her silence around the addiction and death of her brother Hans. Years after his death, she went in search for answers. Why did he get addicted and she didn’t, how did he feel and could she have done anything? Her brother Hans was only 38 years old when he died in a hotel room in Berlin. His sudden cardiac arrest was caused by drugs. His death is a fact, the way he died a taboo.

The book reflects her feelings, thoughts and memories during her quest. She visited Berlin, studied her family albums and talked to many people who dealt with addiction. The book comes with an essay by writer Ralf Mohren, known from his novel “Tonic”. In the past Ralf struggled with an alcohol addiction.